I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything~ Katy Perry, Roar
I wish I wasn’t a judgmental as I am. I admit it. I look at things through my own view of life and I wonder…a lot. One social media friend has made a huge deal about having endoscopy and a colonoscopy. I mean, the week leading up to the event was filled with comments about how they couldn’t even open the envelope with the instructions in it because they were petrified. Now they’re posting about how hard the recovery is for them. And I’m reading this thinking “seriously!”
Others make comments about my life along the lines of “I wish I could do that” and all I can think of is “why not?” You may not be able to do exactly what I’m doing, but you don’t need someone’s permission to get out and about. It’s a choice I make. Unless I’m in the hospital or feeling exceptionally crappy, I’m up and doing because that’s how I think. It’s much harder to hit me if I keep moving 🙂
In another social media thread, someone asked for suggestions about managing their healthcare. I tried to be helpful, but when the poster stated they could never question their doctor out of respect, I went off. It’s your health that you should be talking about. If you make an appointment to see your provider, you should leave with fewer questions than you came in with. There is nothing “wrong” with making sure you understand expectations.
We all get to make choices. We all hope our choices are the “right” ones. Reality is, you won’t know until you go for it. You won’t find your limit if you never push yourself. You won’t get through the next thing on your list if you stay in one place. You won’t learn anything if you never ask questions. If you just want to sit there, that’s fine. I’ll catch you when I get back from my next adventure.